It's all in my head

serverussnape-always:

WHEN A BOOK IS JUST SO ELOQUENTLY WRITTEN AND THE CHARACTERS ARE BEAUTIFUL AND HAVE AMAZING DEVELOPMENT AND EVERYTHING IS DESCRIBED SO PERFECTLY THAT YOU CAN PICTURE IT SO FLAWLESSLY IN YOUR HEAD

AND JUST

LITERATURE

(via bookishsleeplessnights)

I don’t understand how some people can go to sleep at night not knowing what to do about their problems. Me? I stay up all night, going through my mental checklist, not falling asleep until everything has an answer. I may not achieve everything I want in a snap, but at least I go to sleep at night assured that when I wake up, I know what baby steps to take to get closer to fixing my problems.

As Mom, my sisters and I were leaving the apartment, my heart fell when Mom noticed that the screen framed in front of our glass jalousie windows were cut open, in two different parts. Yep, someone tried to break in… while everyone was at home (during the night). We reported the incident to the landlady and I guess she has no intentions of fixing it up. And now my heart is throbbing, and I’m sweating bullets even though it just rained. I can’t sleep until the holes get covered up; I can’t sleep until the landlady fixes the gate; I can’t sleep until my heart stops throbbing… ugh.

I’ve been getting to know our neighbor for the past couple of months, and today she talked more about her bright personality, and how she hated having to worry about things all the time. I just… couldn’t picture myself like that. If I don’t have a plan, I don’t have anything. 

Of course, I know that there are things I can’t control… a lot of them. That’s why I’m channeling all my energy to these things I can control, like myself, and the things around me. Cut-up screens, messy roomies, fucked up grades because of my amazing attendance on my 7AM classes, etc. But sometimes fixing things require help from other people, and if there’s one thing I’ve learned in this life, it’s that you can’t always trust people. Even if they’re family. You love them, but you can’t depend your whole life on them.

When it comes to these things, I’m always going against the grain with my family. When a problem arises, I always ask what we can contribute to fix it. That’s a priority. But them? They always end up in tangents… Last time, a  business plan somehow led to my married life. I can’t even…

My heart’s still throbbing. I wanna walk this out since it’s so wonderfully cold outside, but I’m afraid of running into whoever it was that tried to break in. Does anyone know where I can but Mace in the PH(mine got confiscated at the airport because I didn’t put it in my trolley which I checked-in, so)?

sheloveswords:

Damnit, that 727 post shouldn’t be published yet. That’s supposed to go on queue, lol. Anyways, good news. To My Eric will be showing at NCCC Mall this May 4 so if you’re in Davao and you want to buy tickets (or just want to congratulate me haha), drop it on my ask. 

I’m so proud of you. :) 

You guys!!! These are my Booksale finds! :))

I went to 7 branches in Metro Manila with Flery, and honestly I had more fun walking from Malate to Makati for Booksale over walking around an air conditioned mall in Divisoria (more on that on another post)!

• Seventeenth Summer was written in 1942, and it inspired Michelle Dalton’s Sixteenth Summer which I really liked. Since Seventeenth Summer was unavailable anywhere electronically, it has since then been on my mental list of books I watch out for. So there we were in Booksale, with myself holding a book I was about to buy, when for some reason I was drawn to look at the pocket books section (which I hardly ever do), and bam! There it was! I literally shrieked when I saw it (and shrieked 5 times more later). I didn’t even look at how much it was, not until I got home. 
• The Summer I Turned Pretty has quite the story. It’s the very first good book I found at the very first Booksale branch I went to in Manila, one that was pretty near the place I was staying at, and freaked when I saw it. However, I had to think about buying it because a) the cover was rather dirty, and b) was I really going to spend 145 pesos on YA romance? So I put it back. But then when I walked to another Booksale branch, they had the second book, It’s Not Summer Without You (but someone else was already bought it while me and my aching heart just stared). When Flery and I got home, she said “Imagine if you got to buy both books. You’ll only need the last one to complete the trilogy.” So I went back to buy it, and went to more Booksale branches to find the last two. Obviously we were unsuccessful. Anyway, thanks to my trusty wet wipes, the book now looks pretty clean!
• If I Stay is the prequel to my all-time favorite YA romance book Where She Went, and I really did not expect to find it because I didn’t know that the mall I went to had a Booksale branch. I wanted to buy myself shoes, but then just in case, I asked the guard if they had Booksale. And they did! I was alone when I found it, but that did not stop me from going “Oh my god!” when I found it! :)
• These three Lemony Snicket’s A Series of Unfortunate Events books… Man, I cannot believe I have them. I own those beautiful babies, and I am only 8 books away from completing the 13-book series! I already have The Reptile Room and The Bad Beginning (which I got for Christmas). 
  We went to Booksale at the Mall of Asia, and I found a hardbound copy of The Reptile Room. I didn’t pick it up immediately because I already had one back home, but then I got to thinking of getting it for Marry. When I went back to the children’s section, the attendant took it out and hid it behind the counter. Since I was a shameless tourist, I took a peek and saw a list of books that customers pay to be reserved. It was so unfair. I suppose that’s why we don’t have a lot of good books down here in Davao. </3

I spent around 860 PHP+ for books that total up to 2247 PHP when bought at bookstores. I saved 1387 PHP. Good job, me! :)

1. Mobile phone
2. Rosary, because we prayed it every day during the conference
3. A whiteboard marker for labeling stuff
4. A pen I stole from my sister
5. Mom’s water tumbler which could only contain two gulps! Pfft
6. SPF 80 sunblock because the heat there was just so, so bad.
7. J&J powder
8. Human Nature 100% natural tinted lip balm in orchid
9. My Barbie mirror
10. Baby wipes for emergencies
11. That’s our conference ID
12. My rather ghastly-colored wallet. I thought that if I had an ugly wallet it would discourage me from ever taking it out to spend money, but that didn’t work out.
13. Rubbing alcohol every time I touched money,etc.
14. A comb.
15. My dearly beloved Mace. Unfortunately I don’t know enough people to make the airport security people allow me to bring it with me, and so now it’s gone. </3